7 October 2010
Sgt. Weikle Dallas K.
It's one of those nights. I miss you terribly. I'm falling apart for the moment and not liking it one bit. I promised I would stay strong, hold my head up and not let you down. But I'm gonna have to let you down right now. I wanna curl up in a ball until you come home. I've never relied so much on anyone in my life. Every email, every phone call, I grasp onto it with everything I have. I never want it to end. I'm sooo sick of needing a good Internet connection to talk to you, having 5 dropped calls in 2o minutes.
I need you here, I need to be held even just for a minute. I haven't had a hug from you in 5 months let alone a hug from anyone in over a month. I can't remember what kissing feels like. I need someone to look at me after I get ready in the morning and tell me I'm beautiful. Someone to laugh at my jokes no matter what. I rely on you so much. You're truly an amazing man, someone that I envy. What you do everyday just amazes me. I couldn't be more proud to call you my husband. You make me the best person I can be and make me see life in a way that most people don't. You make life simple, straight to the point. Your outlook on life amazes me. I respect you so much, you know that. You'll never know the impact you've had on me, the effect your phone call at 1 AM has on me, the amount that I talk about you, how I can smile just thinking about feeling the back of your head after a haircut.
There is so much that you'll never fully know. I can tell you but, babe, nothing will ever come close to explaining how you make me feel. I'm going to show you, trust me. You come home because I have a lot to do. I want to hold your hand like I've never touched it before, watch you as you laugh, tell you thank you for everything you do... You know, when you were home I did everything I could to make your work week better for you and I still never felt like I gave back enough to you. I would do anything you wanted me to, no questions asked. I can honestly say that marrying you was the best thing that will ever happen to me. I can't imagine not having you as my best friend and husband. I married you because you're everything to me and I can't picture going on in life without you. Not a doubt in my mind we were made for each other.
Know that I'm still here missing you as much as the day you left. Missing doing "it" a lot more than the day you left but you already know that. I love you and I can't wait for the day you step off that bus and smile at me, just your smile...I'd give anything for it right now. We have good things planned for when you come home, I just can't wait. Nothing will feel better than that day. I just want your arms around me, to feel you breathe...the littlest things I miss the most.
I'm doing fine babe, I'm just missing you.
This is me kissing you....XOXOXOXO!
I love you a lot. A LOT.